Tales of a Homeschool Nothing ~ Acceptance, Admittance, & Adjustments

I have been struggling so much this school year. I have no problem admitting that. I feel like I am still in - what I call - "survival mode". Most days, I am doing just enough to get by & its starting to catch up with me. Even though Logan has gotten on a decent routine, I am still getting up with him 2-4 times a night. That can really wreck havoc on what little bit of common sense & judgement that I may have previously claimed to have had.

Don't get me wrong - I'm NOT complaining, I'm just stating the facts.

I've felt that "something" wasn't quite right, but I just couldn't put my finger on it to begin with. After some deep thought - ok, maybe not so deep, but lots of thinking & searching - I realized that my heart just wasn't into part of our curriculum. I couldn't make our unit studies work. I'm not sure if it was me or if it just didn't fit us, but  e v e r y s i n g l e d a y  was a struggle to get through it. I kept thinking that I would get the hang of it, I kept wanting to make it through Christmas, but deep down, I knew we needed to change.

Sooooo ...... I bit the bullet & returned to the history curriculum we used last year. Tapestry of Grace is a 4 year rotation & we started out with year 2 because I was part of a co-op & that's what they used. We enjoyed it last year, but I guess I needed to venture out & see what else there was.

Unfortunately, I can't afford to buy Apologia for science right at this moment, so I am having to make due. Hopefully by Christmas, we will be able to swing it.

Sunday morning, I spent my extra hour laying in the bed thinking........... I knew when we set out on this homeschool adventure that I really didn't want to teach high school. Unless God completely changed my mind, we would send the kids back to public school when they got older. BUT, Sunday morning, I could NOT get middle school out of my head. This scares me to death! This only gives me another year and a half with Austin at home! Have I made any difference in this short amount of time? Will he have trusted God enough to stand up for his beliefs? Has he really learned ANYTHING?

I just want to follow God's lead for our family! Please pray for us!